Motion Picture Soundtrack- Radiohead- Kid A

Kid A is an album that should be listened to in it’s entirety, because it is really like a story in the form of an album. The songs all flow into one another perfectly. It is too hard to pick just one song from this album (or from any of Radiohead’s work, as it is all just amazing) and call it my favorite, so I won’t, but this is one of their more extraordinary numbers. It’s like a fucked up version of Peter Pan or something. Thom Yorke’s voice floats lazily over the organ that introduces us to the song and continues alone throughout the opening verse, “Red wine and sleeping pills, help me get back to your arms. Cheap sex and surfin’ arms, help me get where I belong. I think you’re crazy” until a beautifully played harp joins in at the start of the second verse. They are later joined by an angelic chorus, giving the feeling of passing on “I think you’re crazy… I will see in the next life.”  The song then seemingly ends, until 1 minute and 2 seconds later, when we are greeted once more by what it should sound like on the way to heaven for the next 50 seconds, until silence once again. The track then goes on in silence for the remaining 1 minute and 53 seconds. Just a really extraordinary song.

im actually having a decent week, aside from the fact that my wife and i both hurt our backs pretty badly. im recovering, but she is still in a lot of pain. oh!!! i heard the most wonderful song today. i was streaming House M.D. and it started playing and i just felt  it was one of those songs where a few seconds into it i knew i loved it, love at first listen or whatever. its got that thing that am constantly searching for in the music that i listen to, that thing that i cant understand or define, but i call it a beautiful sadness yes i know that sounds odd but "beautiful sadness" kinda fits. its something so beautiful, that it kind of makes you sad, but in a good way. like sad because you never want it to end, but you know it will, so you just have to try and be content to only hold it for a moment. because after that it is gone. but in a way, that is a good thing. you just have to remember that first time you heard the song and hold onto that moment, because that is all that is left of it. because even though you can listen to that song over and over again and it will still be mind numbingly amazing, it wont be the same as that first time that you heard. it may be 99% the same, but its that 1% percent that i am always searching for. like the first time i heard Fake Plastic Trees, i remember exactly where i was, and what i was doing when i first heard it... and i remember the way i felt hearing it for the first time. i know it sounds overly dramamtic but it was like i couldnt believe i had gone through my whole life up to that point not knowing that this song, this wonderful mixture of sounds arranged just so perfectly and carefully, existed. and i truly believe that moment changed me, even if it was slightly, but permanently. i will never be the same because of that song, and others. and while Fake Plastic Trees still almost brings me to tears whenever i sit and listen to it, its still not the same as that first time, just that 1%. im constantly searching for that 1%, that ONE PERCENT that makes life worth living, its so small but so significant. thats what i always am looking for in music, and tonight i found it again. even if it was just for those 4:07, it was those 4:07 seconds that give me the will to keep on going. those 4:07 are all that i need. and though they are gone, i will always remember the way i felt the first time those 4:07 entered my ear cannal, and made their way past my ear drums and into my brain, where they will remain forever. and i will look back on that feeling, and i will become sad, but it will be a beautiful sadness. and that is all i can hope for. so i want to thank Ray LaMontagne, even though he will never read this, i still want to thank him for those 4:07 seconds that he was wonderful enough to share with me, and the rest of the world, and thank him for his beautifully sad song, I Still Care for You. And that is what this blog is for, all of the music and movies and paintings and books and tv shows that make me feel that way, the way those 4:07 made me feel. And I put those things here so that others may find them… should you choose to look.